"To die by your side, is such a heavenly way to die"

Today I felt TIRED and then BORED and then a LITTLE BIT HAPPY and then SAD and then STILL SAD and then VERY VERY VERY HAPPY and now here I am, sort of normal levelled. I love Tenzins house and also Tenzin and I didn't feel even a little bit alone when I was with her, which was my feeling for lots of the day today. ALONE, as in. Which is quite a terrible thing, really, to feel alone. But here is a story okay

I was talking to my Dad on sunday about books but really we were talking about Pauls death, and he said something like 'do you think any book can be truly successful if it doesn't have death in it, because thats what all these famous books have, a horrible amount of death,' and I said 'well I don't know' and sort of hmm'd, and then he whispered a little 'it's the universal emotion, isn't it. the ultimate emotion, death.' and he said it just like that; 'the ultimate emotion.' and then I said, 'no, because you've forgotten love, haven't you. death wouldn't matter if it weren't for love.' and I felt a bit like I'd helped him, in some way, even if we were actually just talking about books and not something else hidden. Nothing would really matter if we didn't feel anything though, would it? Nobody would really do anything. We'd just be like trees, I suppose. Or rocks, even.